Recently, I have been fighting God. He said, “Ask and you shall receive.” I have been asking for healing or deliverance.
Neither is happening. Then, our bible study, CBS, had the memory verse of the week, “And whomever does not take up his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it. and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.” Matthew 10:38-39.
That is tough stuff. I am really struggling with this! Is part of the struggle, part of the cross? Jesus sure doesn’t make it easy for us! Sometimes we feel on top of the mountain, but many times we are down in the valley.
It helps to remember, Jesus never asks us to do anything, He hasn’t already done!
Lord, I am in the valley right now and I need your help!
You are my Savior, but Lord, even you needed help carrying that cross. As I continue to lose ground physically as I am aging, Lord send me your help!
Be thou my guide and example. Send me your Holy Spirit to guide and support me. I am your child and I need your help to carry the crosses you send so I can be worthy of you and some day be able to see your beautiful face and thank you for all you have done in my life and in the lives of those I love.
You are my role model, and Lord, it sure isn’t easy following you but I love you because you first loved me enough to live this earthly life and die on the cross for me. Amen